yea, old blog design better, not i design one, my friend design one, up till now still not sure how to use the blog function, however i've work about 1 and half months liao, really in need of my pay, still have to tahan at least 4 more weeks sian, want buy man utd jacket for me and friend cause both of us like it alot, but now no money can buy what shit sia, hope pay day quickly come, by the way i will be using this blog liao, thanks for the support.
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3:06 PM Friday, August 21, 2009
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HEHE its been a long long time wa biang think 3 to 4 week no blog liao. First talk about what i did last week went pub for countdown ith friend at bugis pub drink 3 cup canot stand liao wan faint le lol. Then watch death note twice good movie by the way. Then go make atm card as i lost the pin number and the card liao. Buy shirt for english new year at queensway spend about $180++ went chua chu kan g also for shirt, and as usual play pool and talk cock. Life being enjoying this past 3 days yeaa. Ok next thing i wan talk about is my hair i decide to cut it at the saloon to become like michael scofiled the prison break guy cause i reallly like tat drama like until want to like the actor. Maybe prison break cast and crew and come find me i wan act inside also lol.... ok tats for today chaoz next time i talk cock agian in myu blog now beri beri tired wan ong ging kong(sleep)...
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2:29 PM Wednesday, January 03, 2007
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一失足成千古恨... yes in simple english mean once you miss it you will regrett the rest of your bloody life. You may find it strange why i start with saying this chinese poem but today i decide to write abit about my crap life and it got to do with this poem describe above. Well I shall turn back the virtual clock back to my secondary school life. I use to hate study very much that i don even like to see the sight of books, beginning in primary 1 to to primary 6 its pure shit stuff for me in education lifespan, i nvr intended to even to look at the text book every time exam i even tried to copy other people exam paper just to get a pass in every year that i have been, in other words no interest in study everyday after school (my friend find it wired) i just went back home straight and watch power rangers and all those crap children shows wat mutant turtle, teletubbies all those(yea find it childish tats how i spend my childhood). My friends will play soccer downstair at my block but i was like only tinking of being alone nt mixing around much like to watch tv so much tat i lock myself in the room for just any tv show(maybe tats why it build me up till today being so much alone).
Every moring 5 am i will wait at the jing shan primary school class room for my good friend homework the book is pass here and there and always i will be either the first or second to get the book all maths homework(i hate maths alot tats why maybe its also build from there) have to blame myself after tat primary school incident i copied and copied nt knowing a single ting, in fact after all this stuff i barely scrap through my PSLE with a score of 154 wow wat a score(lol), my mum and (dad at that time still alive), didnt scold me infact say its over at least you gt take the exam. The score was actually bounded normal technical stream, but for some strange reason or mirically the score was just good enough for yio chu kang secondary school normal academic stream, i was posted there in the end (that school choice in fact) i put quite at the end and still they accept me(tok kong).
At yio chu kang sec things gt worsen sec 1 to 2. I mix with those friends that don study at all abit ah beng they all but actually i don blame them cause its my fault, i continue the same procedure nt studying at all everyday same thing tv, eat and sleep. Then somehow another miracle happen i manage to sracp through barely for my sec 2 exam in fact i gt fail my maths so badly like 45 plus marks to 50 the principal decide to push me up tat year to sec 3 becasue luckliy my overall point makes me the last 3 in the class i managed to push up to sec 3 due to sympathy onli(as you know secondary school have this policy of pushing student up if the overall score for other subject is acceptable).
Den for some wired reason things changes in sec 3 for the first common test i fail everyting except chinese i even get a 0 for my geography(first zero in life). Tat day i went home like a dead soul den i lock my self in the bathroom for 3 hours i shower myself while i'm still dressed. I told myself if i continue like tat don even tink of passing secondary school and get the hell out of the place. After 3 hours i went out of the bath room fully wet i switch on tv i saw a show on channle 5 showing a tv show call guiness world book of record it shows a boy with half a brain still manage to get a degree in U.S university then i ask myself if a boy with half a brain can study why you study until like tat so from tat day onwards i start to really study and i mean really. My mum recommend a tutor for me den thats when it begin a 360 degree dramatic change i pass my sec 3 with flying colors unbelivable the first time gt good result some more i gt the award for best improvement award $150. LOL yes i said then thinks went better i pass my n level with 7 points not very high some may think but i went through diffult patch maths really have so much to catch up i even start from learnong basic mathemactis like ratio and units stuff like that(primary school own fault).
Then came the final path in a singapore student half journey, a path that will seriously affect wat kind of life you will have in the future, one mistake and tats it, 'O' Level. My teacher use to tell me next time eat rice or eat porridge depend on this exam, majiam like old Qing dynasty scholar system. I study hard tat year till prelim den i realise one thing it is abit too late cause my maths foundation is like shit i can do paper 2 maths quite ok but my paper 1 is like shit( this is strange normally paper 1 is much easy to do then paper 2 because of maths level difuclty), but for me its difficult because all paper 1 stuff they ask are all primary school and sec1 and sec 2 stuff basic maths foundation and since i onli start studying at sec 3 all those previous maths stuff i simply have not much idea on it. I train right at the mid term examination as well as prelim on 10 years series but it donsent seem to work as its just like a mountain for me alot dunno too late and too much. My tution teacher told me tats all he can hel me at rest its your fate and effort le. After the maths exam paper i cried when i went home i know tats it i thought i will fail for sure but miraclly again i pass with a c5 if i nt wrong lol.. But still nt enough to propel me to a miserable 24 pionts tats it all hope gone the onli thing i am proud is my science i gt a A2 if nt for tat ITE waiting for me.. I was left with not much choice in poly eduction either it course, engineering course or get your ass to ite or retake one more year as a private candidate in o level or enrol in private school .
I choose the wrong path i guess i went for it cum engineering course, a course that i have no knowledge on no interest on and no passion on and worst difficult(yr 3 den realise) a course tat seriously i don see a future after army the most is being a programmer which for me is as impossible unless pig can fly, i'm nt going to become an it profession in my working life tats for sure, so tat left me with nothing obtain from this diploma just an empty cert. If i have a choice i hope that i can go back to my sec 5 life again and retain tat year by the school if possible(of course nt possible as school don allow) and study real damn hard like mad man, everyday mock book train my maths like newton. Get a nice score and go JC yes Junior college don tink i'm mad cause my dream is to be a doctor when i am young but as mentioned above by the chinese poem its nt possible anymore dreams dash forever.
How i wish i'm like Ashton Kutcher in the movie butterfly effect have the power to turn back time i will sure make it happen man... No point saying now life still have continue come to think about it my life is quite sad de not much friend made in fact i don even have a secondary school friend contact number at all(although i use to have) nvr contacted them at all since o level, the reaseon i have so liftle friends is becoause during my yio chu kang days i don mix around much and even i do its like making use of one another to reach your goals in study for example i use to have a quite good friend but because of my stupid behaviour go message him some crap stuff and from tat day onward s never reply me le(think he blacklisted me from tat day le). Haizz sign out chaoz(i will continue story next time quite boring LOL write my whloe study life but tats what blog is about ma).
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2:07 PM Monday, October 30, 2006
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